Day 10 and Going Strong..well, Maybe!

Today is day 10 and I am feeling really good, albeit very tired. I haven't been doing much exercise on this cleanse, and I know that's not totally good, but my body is whooped. I get so tired just walking up a flight of stairs or cruising on the strand with Miss Sadie (my darling pit bull). There are a lot of toxins being released and a lots of little guys sweeping up inside, so I need to be gentle with myself. I know that I need to just take it easy and take it day by day. Maybe one day I will wake up with a boat-load of energy and go for a run!! wow, that would be a miracle!

It's been a very mellow week for me work-wise, which has been quite a blessing. Summer is a little slow for Karma Chow due to so many of my clients traveling with their families. I am gearing up for September to kick in and to head back to Colorado for a Healthy Table "ITALIAN FOOD" Event on the 26th! I will post the information for this class on Facebook if you are in the CO/Denver area! I am also going to be hosting a Candida Cooking Class on September 10th in LA, so check out the event page on my site to get updates!

Anyway, I am at a loss as to what to cook lately. I am feeling bored with what we are eating. I asked Daniel if he felt bored with the food, and he said "no", so I guess it's alright. It's just that my options are SO limited and I am searching my cookbooks for new ideas and ways I can substitute certain foods for the recipes I find with "Candida Friendly" foods. It proves to be a bit challenging. I am ready to give up and say....well, you know.

I did this cleanse before and I am having all those memories flood back in when I eat the food and taste the same tastes that I did a few years back. Honestly, it's making me not want to eat at all!!! Did you ever smell something or taste something that took you right back to a time in your childhood and you can feel and see that memory so vividly? I think they are called Associative memories?? Well anyway, that's what's happening with me. I am not liking it, but I know that I am doing this for my health and I need to push through. I tell you what, if Daniel wasn't by my side doing this with me, I would've given up after 1 week. I want my Peanut Butter High Protein Greens + bar. Yes, I'm still craving those darn things! Can you believe it? It's more of a texture thing now. There is nothing gooey, creamy, dreamy and delectably sweet on this cleanse, it's straight veggies, grains and protein from animal sources. I have a hard time eating anything with a face, as I mentioned in a previous blog! But, I can handle the eggs from time to time, so I am going to stick to what works. And although I am still craving something sweet and gooey, I know that will pass over time, so I just have to hang in there. Even just one bite of my Raw Vegan "Cheeze"cake!! PLEASE!!!

Anyway, back to cooking. I have a spaghetti squash in the oven right now baking and it's smells so good! When it's done I am going to scrape it out and saute it in a pan with coconut oil, shallots, cinnamon and cardamom. I think it will be like having dessert! I am so excited. I am also going to make some green beans and am hoping to spice them up Indian style, but since I can't use coconut milk or coconut, I'm not sure if just cumin or curry will cut it. I guess I will have to play around and experiment.

If you haven't already noticed, I am addicted to shallots. These little garlic/onion hybrids are oh so sweet when you saute them up! I also put them in salad dressing and they give off such an amazing flavor that isn't as biting as garlic and a little sweeter than onion. I must put them in everything; scrambled eggs, green bean salad, lemon vinaigrette, cole slaw. You name it, they are in there. I think it's a bit of an addiction, but not the type of Greens + Bar addiction, it's a much healthier one!

Today I really wanted to taste coffee, again! What is it with me and the flavor of coffee? My mouth is watering as I write this. I even went into Whole foods and picked up a jar of water processed, organic DECAF, fairtrade coffee and thought..hmmmm...could I do it? And then I thought, NO WAY! I would just set myself back and not because of the caffeine, but because of the flavor... Just tasting it and swirling it's earthy goodness in my mouth would leave me wanting MORE and would put me on that slippery slope!!! And, Daniel and I really need to stay off it for a while....maybe not forever, but we are committed to staying caffeine clean for hopefully a long time.

We have both realized how depleted our Adrenal glands are and that is the reason why we have are lacking the natural energy right now. We have been on the caffeine kick for so long, we've worked our adrenals to the bone and now we need to rebuild them to get back our natural vitality that is our birthright!! I know it will come, but sometimes it's hard to fathom that I will ever have energy without my morning cup. Daniel went for a run yesterday totally caffeine-free and he said he struggled immensely. It was a huge wake up call for him and he got to feel how depleted he has become. I think it even scared him a bit to not have his good old buddy Red Bull to pull him through! He had to rely completely on himself and who he was in the present, even though the guy running with him had just had a redbull and vodka..go figure! But I asked him, "Don't you want to live a lot longer and be healthier than that guy???" I think he got it.

Ok, well I think my squash is almost done. I can smell the sweetness. I am going to go give it the fork prick to test it's tenderness. I hope it doesn't get mad at me! All in all, I am feeling really good and happy I am doing this. There are times I am not so happy, but I can't imagine going back to my old ways, even though I did open the kitchen drawer and saw a menu for Pizza Fusion, which is a NEW organic pizzeria that just opened here in LA. They offer gluten free crust and dairy free cheese on their pizzas...TORTURE!!! Maybe someday...I will dream about it but until then....

As promised, here is the recipe for the Almond Mayo compliments of Donna Gates and The Body Ecology Diet Book

1/2 cup Raw Almonds
1/2 c to 3/4 c filtered water
1/4 tsp. garlic or onion powder (or 1 raw clove garlic, minced)
3/4 tsp. sea salt
1 c. organic, unrefined flax or pumpkin seed oil
3 Tbsp. lemon juice, freshly squeezed
1/2 tsp. raw, organic apple cider vinegar

Cover almonds with boiling water. Allow to cool slightly and then slip off skins.
Place almonds in a blender or food processor and grind to a fine powder. Add half the water along with garlic/onion powder and sea salt. Blend well, then add remaining water to form a smooth cream.
With blender running on low, drizzle in the oil in a thin stream from the top until mixture is thick. Keep blender running and add lemon juice & vinegar. Blend on low 1 minute longer to allow mixture to thicken.
Scrape into a jar with a screw top or tightly fitting lid and refrigerate.
This mixture will keep for 10 days to 2 weeks.

Enjoy! This is great to mix into Cole Slaw or Red Bliss Potato salad, or just use as a dip!

Yours in health,
The Ambivalent Cleanser

All We Do is Talk About Food

Yesterday actually proved to be quite a challenging day, craving-wise. I really wanted coffee for some reason, and I don't even normally drink coffee. Yerba Mate' is my "cup of tea". But the thought of a yummy, creamy latte with Almond Milk was swirling through my brain and on my tastebuds. Did you know that coffee is one of my favorite smells in the world, along with the smell of the sea? Coffee has always been the hardest thing for me not to indulge in. I can give up sugar (except for fruit) any day of the week, but coffee has been a life-long battle. The aroma just gets me..and I just think about sittting at a coffee shop, people watching and letting the day cruise by while I sip on my Agave-sweetened, Almond Milk latte. Yes, you can get an agave sweetened latte here in LA. How cool is that?

Anyway, after I got past the coffee cravings...well, they didn't really pass, but I set my mind right, I decided to have some Tuna for lunch with a homemade coleslaw that I made dressed with Raw Almond Mayo! It was a great lunch, but man, the Tuna did not agree with me. OK, I am a vegetarian. I have been one for years, but I figured that I had to try and eat some fish on this cleanse to get my protein, since I can't eat beans. Well, I am DONE with the Tuna. I had serious heartburn all day long and I haven't had heartburn in years. I combined my food properly. No animal protein and grains together, so I ate vegetables and animal protein...proper food combining. I thought I would be fine, but I was tortured all day long by a deep nagging pain in my belly and chest.

When Daniel got home from work I started to make some soup for us to have for the week. Yes, I made the Cauliflower soup again with Dill and carrots. It's a good staple to have around. I also made Parsnip "Fries", which were really tasty, yet interesting. I drizzled some olive oil on them and added sea salt and a Chili powder blend. I cooked them on a pan in the oven and they came out just like fries..sans crispiness, but they were still good!

Daniel helped cut up all the brussel sprouts and shallots for the next dish. Lemony Roasted Brussel Sprouts. He's so helpful in the kitchen, and I love that he wants to help me cook. It's so fun to do together and it takes an enormous amount of pressure off of me. There was a time when I wouldn't allow anyone in the kitchen to help me, but I am over that!!!

So here is what we had for dinner last night:
Quinoa
Roasted Lemony Brussel Sprouts with Shallots
Parsnip Fries
&
Huge Green Salad w/ Cucumber, Avocado and Rosemary vinaigrette.

It was divine, and I was stuffed. I still felt full from that Damn tuna I ate earlier in the day, but I knew I needed to eat dinner or I would wake up at 3am with Hunger Pangs from you know where! Anyway, after we ate dinner we were just relaxing and talking about food and what we have been craving as well as what we want to eat when we are done cleansing. Both of us realize that we can't jump right back in to eating Gluten Free/Dairy Free pizza or Brown Rice Pasta or even our favorite Tempeh Tacos from Native Foods, but we were daydreaming and talking about all the things we want and miss from doing this cleanse.

Daniel has been craving donuts, Gyro's (those middle eastern type wraps made with Lamb), See's Candies, the Ceasar croutons from Leaf ( a delectable raw food restaurant here in LA), red bulls, coffee, his mom's cream cheese clam dip (YUCK!), cream cheese & salsa with chips, hot sauce...those are just a few! I have been craving those Damn protein bars and missing my daily dark chocolate fix, which most of the time is RAW Chocolate and not so bad for you. I also miss the coconut ice cream topped with grain sweetened chocolate chips. I have been eating "clean" for so long that I am craving the "healthy" versions of the "bad" stuff. I remember the first time I did the cleanse, I wanted to eat everything in sight; cupcakes, cake, cookies, anything loaded with sugar, which I never normally ate anyway. It's funny what the mind can do to you and if all the tastes of the tongue aren't satisfied, we will crave that taste until we get it.

As we discussed food, we wrote a list of all the healthier restaurants we will go to after our cleanse. I must say it's detrimental to our well-being to go out to dinner while on a cleanse...there are just too many temptations. Leaf will be our first stop. I really miss the Ceasar Salad there, not just the croutons. Daniel wants to check out this Persian place down the street and I want to hit up Akasha in Culver City, which actually has Quinoa on the menu! I feel so blessed that we live in LA and have so many great options for healthy food!

Nonetheless, all we do is think and talk about food. It runs our lives right now..but it runs our lives always. I used to hate thinking about food and it was just something that I "had" to do...eat! But that was part of my eating disorder and not wanting to eat because I might get fat. And now, I am a vegetarian chef and I educate others how to eat healthy and change their lives. So, yes, food is my main focus and I love it! I love being creative and figuring out new ways to cook healthier versions of their less healthy counterparts.

So, we ended the day with my bright idea of making whipped cream from RAW cream, which is allowed in moderation on this cleanse. Raw dairy products are much more nutritious for the body and do not wreak havoc on the system like processed, pasteurized dairy products do. So, I managed to whip up the most delectable whipped cream sweetend with Chocolate Stevia and we ate a cup full. After that I was so sick...I couldn't even stand up. I realized that my body does not like Animal products and that I can get crazy with my cravings and trying to figure out what I can eat that is sweet & creamy on this cleanse. I just end up feeling remorseful and sick! So, I learned a big lesson last night and I know I don't need to indulge like that and that my body feels so much better and healthier when I put simple, plant-based foods into it!

By the way, i just started reading "The China Study" and it's an amazing book about thousands of studies that have been done on protein and the plant-based diet. I highly recommend reading it! It will change the way you think about food, meat and being/becoming a vegetarian.

Check out my blog tomorrow for the Almond Mayo recipe!!! it's great as a dip or to use in salads!!!

Most dedicatedly yours,
the Ambivalent Cleanser